Testimony III | Prepared to Give an Answer

If you’re a regular human being, the idea of an hour-long commute, one-way, probably sounds ghastly—and I wouldn’t blame you.

That’s unfortunately what I had for an internship the summer after my sophomore year. While I lived with family in downtown Portland, I took the bus to and from work every day, with multiple line switches and a fair amount of waiting at stops in the heart of Portland, Oregon. It was quite the commute—but I loved it.

For one, the cardinal rule of public transport is that you don’t talk to anyone, so I was free to have my headphones in without fear of being rude. For two, when you’re not the one driving, you don’t have to think about anything—and so my mind was free to wander. 

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Sola Scriptura | Prepared to Give an Answer

It is a truth universally acknowledged that a private university, in want of support from wealthy donors, must be at odds with a sizable portion of its student body.

George Fox, my alma mater, has had its fair share of media coverage for some of the student backlash from administrative decisions. I mean, we have a dry campus, a history of really poorly-handled assault cases, and a “lifestyle policy” that requires abstinence and Chapel attendance, among other things. Did anyone really expect peace?

One of the tamer issues on campus—and one I was actually fairly vocal about within my circles—was how George Fox conducted its Chapel services. Not only were students required to attend (under threat of an actual monetary fine), the services themselves were… mediocre at best, actively heretical at worst. Students had been protesting the way these services were run for years with little progress; but one year, on the 500th anniversary of Martin Luther nailing the 95 Theses to a church door, a student posted 95 theses of their own to our Chapel doors.

At the time, I had only a small inkling of who Luther was—but just a year later, we would read some of his work in our Great Books program, and I would learn a lot more than I’d bargained for.

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Reading Luther

I should preface this with a quick note: Martin Luther is not some intrinsic villain to the Catholic Church, he’s a brilliant theologian, and I highly respect the vast majority of his work. The 95 Theses were a much-needed wake-up call for the Catholic Church; there was a lot of corruption and, frankly, evil within the Church, and Luther was absolutely right in calling it out.

That said, the longer Luther preached and wrote, the more… bold he grew, in both his criticisms and his theology.

When we hit the Reformation period in our Great Books program, we read the 95 Theses and the responses to them, we read Luther’s “Treatise on Christian Liberty”, and then, seemingly out of nowhere, we read his “Preface to the Epistles of St. James and St. Jude”. Suddenly, we were confronted with an entirely foreign opinion:

“I therefore refuse [James] a place among the writers of the true canon of my Bible,” Luther wrote. “I do not hold [the book of James] to be of apostolic authorship.”

Something… wasn’t right there. I learned shortly afterwards that Luther had printed his own Bibles that put the books he considered “disputed” at the end in an appendix—these included James, Jude, Hebrews, and Revelation. This also included, I learned, a subset of other books called the “Apocrypha,” or the Deuterocanonical books: 1 and 2 Maccabees, Judith, Tobit, Baruch, Sirach, and Wisdom (as well as some additions to both Esther and Daniel).

Luther had legitimate reasons for separating the Deuterocanonical books—they appeared in the Greek collection of Jewish scriptures, the Septuigent, but not in the original Hebrew collection. For books like James or Hebrews, though… Luther wanted them separated, for the most part, because he disagreed with them theologically.

And then he turned around and put forth Sola Scriptura.

The question demanded to be asked: How can you claim your only authority is Scripture while you’re actively arguing about what Scripture is?

Scripture Alone?

I know I’m running the risk here of grossly misrepresenting Luther’s positions; I can already feel the Lutherans from Twitter crawling out of the walls to correct me. I’ll be the first to say that I’m no Lutheran scholar—but I do know that Luther was highly educated and very much not stupid.

It still didn’t follow for me, though, how Luther could claim Sola Scriptura—that the Christian’s sole authority is Scripture—while arguing that certain books weren’t theologically sound enough to remain a part of the main canon.

If Scripture was his only authority, by what authority was he essentially editing Scripture? I couldn’t figure it out.

There are all sorts of arguments for and against Sola Scriptura out there; the internet is littered with articles, podcasts, and YouTube debates on the subject. I spent a long time consuming as many of them as I could, learning all about the origins of Biblical canon, the many councils it was debated at, the Septuigent, what Catholics meant by “Sacred Tradition”—but none of it truly stuck. I think maybe I didn’t want it to. After all, there was only one group who didn’t adhere to that particular Sola—and it wasn’t the Protestants.

But then I found the turning point I never wanted in a single sentence from Catholic apologist Patrick Madrid, re-worded here:

If the Bible is our only authority, but the Bible never states that Scripture is to be our only authority, saying it is our only authority is already imposing an external authority.

It was a self-defeating argument. 

I’m fairly certain I paused the interview to just.. process. Madrid was absolutely right. There was nothing to be done. The common verses appealed to in defense of Sola Scriptura didn’t work here—verses like the famous 2 Timothy “all Scripture is God-breathed…” didn’t prove anything. All they said was that Scripture was from God, not that it was the only thing from God.

Pretty much against my will, I could no longer say I believed in the “Scripture Alone” view of Biblical authority. I also had no idea where this left me. 

If I didn’t believe the Bible was our only authority… what else was? There was no way that some guy dressed in white living at the Vatican was the only answer—I wasn’t going to touch that for quite a while. There was also no way that I’d ever believe that the Bible didn’t have intrinsic and imperative authority—arguing that the Bible never declared itself a sole authority was nowhere near believing Christians weren’t still bound to follow all of its teachings.

But despite that… I knew I couldn’t honestly defend Luther’s doctrine of Sola Scriptura. It changed very little about my faith at the time—there was no other authority I submitted to, so I still lived with Scripture as my sole authority—but it left cracks in my foundation.

If I didn’t have Sola Scriptura, what would defend me against the claims certain other churches made about authority?

If I didn’t have Sola Scriptura… what would defend me against the Pope?

As it turned out, there were far more historical and scriptural arguments to be picked through before I got anywhere near understanding the Papacy, much less (spoiler alert) deciding to submit to it. But the damage was done—a huge barrier had just been removed, and I couldn’t go back.

So—sorry, Martin. You’re brilliant… but I guess I love James’s epistle too much to agree with you here. 🙂


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Prayer to the Saints | Prepared to Give an Answer

Let’s get the obvious out of the way here: praying to dead people as though they are God is wrong, idolatrous, and blasphemous.

Alright—I hope that was a sigh of relief! We are, in fact, not intending to tread heretical ground today.

The teaching is this: Saints in Heaven are connected to saints on Earth through Christ, and they still pray to God. Therefore, asking for the “prayer of a righteous person” who’s in Heaven isn’t any different than asking a friend to pray for you on Earth.

This is a pretty frequent point of confusion for so many people who ask me about Catholicism, and I absolutely get it. Part of this is the Catholic Church’s use of the word “prayer” to describe talking to the Communion of Saints (which just causes unnecessary confusion, in my opinion). Part of it is also just that there are some… wild speculations out there about ancestor-worship, idolatry, and intercession. It also doesn’t help that, like Apollos, there are plenty of ill-informed Christians who don’t understand the actual Catholic teachings but still speak about them with authority.

Correcting False Assumptions

In my sophomore year of college, my Fall Honors seminar was led by both of the Catholic professors in the program. It was also the semester that we were covering medieval Christian texts—it was, needless to say, very Catholic. Drs. Favale and McCullough did an excellent job of explaining context and answering questions we had without imposing their views or assuming we held similar ones.*

One such time was when we encountered prayer to the Saints in one of the texts we were reading—well, multiple texts, actually. The Early Church was pretty big on intercessory prayer!

When we asked about it, Dr. Favale explained it like this: if we’re all one Body, and Jesus conquered death, that means even Christians who have died are connected in the Body—otherwise, we wouldn’t be able to say that “neither death nor life […] will be able to separate us from the love of God”. To say that we’re not connected to the Saints who have passed on, then, is cutting Christ’s sacrifice short—did He conquer death, or didn’t he?

O Death, Where is Your Sting?

Now, the nature of this living-and-dead connection is debatable. Obviously, just “being connected” to Saints in Heaven doesn’t naturally lead to the conclusion that we can speak with them—but we do see examples throughout Scripture of this connection between the living and the dead being far more than just a vague “we’re all connected in Christ”! 

Elijah and Moses are present on Earth for the Transfiguration. Abraham can speak to the rich man in Hell, and he sees what the rich man’s family is doing. Paul prays for a man who has died: “may the Lord grant him to find mercy from the Lord on that Day” (2 Tim. 4:18). Saints around God’s throne offer up prayers as incense—what might they be praying for?

I don’t write this as a formal argument for the Catholic-specific teaching of prayer to the Saints; there are hundreds of theologians and scholars who’ve already done that! All I hope to impart here is simply this: that the belief that those who have died in Christ are still present in the Body, and that we are connected with them, isn’t idolatrous or heretical or crazy. Death isn’t an impenetrable divide anymore.

It’s All about Christ

It took me a very, very long time to get from “we’re more deeply connected to the Saints than other souls, living and dead, through Christ” to “it’s not totally out there to think Saints could hear us” to “I guess, if they can hear us, they’re probably praying for us”. It’s okay if you’re sitting there thinking Those are crazy jumps! How could anyone ever get there? I totally get it, and I’m not trying to convince you of every stepping stone here—I just hope it makes sense that, once you recognize that the veil being torn means the line between death and life has been forever blurred, a whole bunch of other stuff starts blurring, too.

Prayer to Saints does not replace prayer to Christ. Like I said at the beginning—it’s like asking friends to pray for you here on Earth. If you’re only ever asking others to pray for you and never praying yourself, you’ve got a problem, whether your friends are alive or dead. 

Acknowledging the fullness of the unity of Christ’s Body can look like acknowledging the Saints—but what it should always, always look like is that unity carrying you closer to Christ Himself.


*  Let it be known that my Catholic professors definitely did not coerce me or encourage me to become Catholic! I did all this investigation pretty much on my own; they were happy to answer questions occasionally, but the most “coercive” thing they ever did was pray for me—interpret that as you will. 😉


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Sacramental Theology | Prepared to Give an Answer

Church traditions and early Christian texts often use language I used to be wholly unfamiliar with growing up in an Evangelical Protestant context—entering their circles brings you to a lot of strange Latin phrases, jargon, and philosophical vocabulary. One of the first examples of this I encountered was the idea of “sacramental” theology.

The idea is so simple, but it changes everything: it’s the belief that physical things can have spiritual effects.

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Prepared to Give an Answer: Introduction

There’s probably not a more honest way of framing everything I want to say about my present journey with Christ than this: I’m so tired.

You would think that the quintessential “I went to college and went so much deeper in my walk with Jesus!” story would be marked by evangelical zeal, intellectual curiosity, and a voracious appetite for more of Christ, His Church, and His teachings. I did go to college (I graduate this April), and I have gone fathoms deeper in my walk with Christ; but my story could not be more opposite in so many ways.

My journey over the last four years has been marked, instead, by spiritual isolation, intellectual burnout, and a reluctance so great that I’ve used the phrase “kicking and screaming” to describe it more times than I can count. I have drug my feet to Scripture, Church history, and back again, through countless church buildings and traditions, and over a thousand pages of theology from Augustine, Aquinas, Calvin, Luther, to Chesterton, Kierkegaard, Wesley, Lewis. I’ve fasted, prayed, cried, discerned, talked late into countless nights with friends and mentors, begged my God to lead me into what was true and away from what was false.

And now, I have arrived on the doorstep of the Catholic Church.

For so many people I have spoken with, this fact alone invalidates every moment of the journey before it. 

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